Always Thinkin' of Them 🥴😆

Good morning familove buckets! This is Misha! A submission from @livvula, and I love this little girl! I was sent a few of her videos and she's so funny 😆 Can't wait to show you more of her antics.

Nothing too exciting and new today, just another day of avoiding the outside heat as much as possible and editing. (with snackies, obviously.) I've been thinking a lot lately about how to find balance. In life, in my work, in my down time, in my friendships and relationships... and it's always been difficult for me to gage where that middle ground lies. I've lived such an unconventional life, and my brain is wired differently than others, so I've never been able to truly understand what people's "normal" is. I know a lot of it has to do with the stigma around people on disability or social programs, and thinking we're lazy. So no matter how much I do, even if I run myself in to the ground, I still think I'm not doing enough, because I'm oN dIsAbIlItY and how dare i allow myself rest. But when i do less I feel like I'm falling behind... I feel like there's never enough time in the day to do the normal things like work, eat, give my cats attention, do some self care like brushing my teeth, and then find any time in there to relax or allow my brain to stop for just a minute.. I wish I wasn't blessed with such a messy mind, sometimes. I'm grateful for the endless creativity it provides me, but when I can't even manage to get most of my ideas out of my head, then it's just a big ol noisy mess that I can't escape from. and it's riddled with anxiety. What I've managed to do lately is keep some sort of schedule to base my days off of, even if I don't like it. The other day I made myself sit on the couch and just watch a tv show and not do anything else and I just sat there like "do do do dooo I'm not doooing enough" 🙈 I think I bring this up every few months, but it's because it's an endless issue I deal with.

How do you stay balanced in your day-to-day? It might really help to hear from everyone else' what they consider a comfortable amount of "doing" to feel like you've had a good day. Or should I say a productive day. What helps you allow yourself a day of relaxation without guilt or shame? And who else is going through the same thing?

Love you lots ❤️

Alex, Susie and Calvin