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Dear Beautiful Follwers...

Writer's picture: Manic Pixie Cat LadyManic Pixie Cat Lady

I just want to say that if it weren’t for you guys, I would probably just be saying "fuck it". Things haven’t been good. My relationship with my cats, especially Susie, has been plummeting for some time now. I know a lot of it was due to her illnesses, and we fought that thanks to you guys. But now I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t know why she hates me more; because I moved her away from my ex and the big house, or that I’m always on my computer.


I used to always be available to give her attention and now this channel is taking up all day, every day of my time. I’ve been willing to sacrifice that, because I knew I was trying to build a better life for us. Get her a nice big space and build her a dream catio decked out with ninja-warrior equipment and the like. I do give her time, but it’s never enough because like I said, I used to ALWAYS be available. I was a drunk who did nothing with my life because I thought I was a waste of space. And now I’m sober and I no longer want to struggle to make ends meet and I want to have purpose. I kept telling Susie, don’t worry, after halloween, things will get going. Or don’t worry, after Christmas it’s gunna happen.


With having all these bugs in my channel, while I was doing everything right and my work speaking for itself, I decided to drop 60 bucks(monthly) on a blue check for FB to finally get some customer support, fix those bugs, and clear my path to monetization (ads, meta makes money off of the ads they put on my stuff that they don’t pay me for). But after 6 failed bug fixing attempts, 4 anxiety attacks, and a final stitch effort to ask them WTF is going on, they basically told me it’s not gunna happen any time soon. I “Missed my chance” even though I applied half a year ago and am in review for some.. I am gutted. I put in my everything in to this, I don't see my friends, I have a shitty relationship with my cats, terrible anxiety and none of my hard work is paying off because I forgot to factor in that these platforms aren’t necessarily fair, and they don’t care about you.


I have 180k followers on Facebook, 50 Million views JUST on Facebook and jUST this month. And yet they don’t see my value.


I know a lot of people will think well look at all my followers and likes! Which I am grateful for, I am! But honestly, growing to this size without compensation has just got me more mean messages and comments to sift through, 🤷🏻‍♀️ and no matter how much these platforms try to make you think so, attention isn’t currency. I can’t pay my rent with attention. I wish money weren’t such a driving point for me right now, it wasn’t really at first I just wanted to make people happy and feel like I had a reason to get up every morning.. But the economy is already bad enough and now my rent goes up this summer. I cannot afford it with the money I have now.


So long story short, I am gutted, defeated, scared that I can’t do this, and I’m not in a good place to make any decent content for you today, I’m really sorry. I need to regroup, figure out my plan, finally put the time in to finishing the store so that I don’t completely lose my sanity in feeling like this is all a waste.. and I really really need to go cuddle Susie and Calvin for a few days.


I WILL be back because I LOVE YOU. ALL of you beautiful people who have helped make things better. I don’t like feeling this way because I know I have had a positive impact on so many people and saying it was a waste is almost a slap in the face to all of that. I need to go back and remember why I love doing this, and what i love doing; which is making people’s day better by being my silly self through cats. Everyone’s mental health is so important to me, but saying that, I need to take care of mine right now. I hope you can stick around, keep the channel active for the next few days until I’m back. I love you all. Thank you for always being a light in this dark time. ❤️ 


❤️ Manic Pixie Cat Lady - aka Alex, Susie and Calvin ❤️

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Jm
3 days ago

I have 22 cats and most are feral. Much time goes in to taking care of them. 3 hours a day feeding, washing dishes sanitizing , and all kinds of unexpected things, lol needless to say. I am a dog person truly lol, yet people keep dumping these beautiful feline souls , in our area. I think you need to pray and give all your worry to God. He provides for you and directs your path. So he knows your humor and kindness, two great traits, don’t give up! Just pray, think positive and be grateful, amazing moments are not too far away🤗. Blessings

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אורח
30 בינו׳

I’ve been there too. Actually I was approved for therapy sept of last year and also stopped drinking. I’m reading a book called Self-love and I see myself growing inner strength. I’m caring about myself more and in turn able to balance what I choose to give of myself to others. So just know your not alone. Take time to just enjoy the simple things in life. Believe it or not even something as simple as a shower was hard for me. Hope this helps!

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!!

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Oh that was so lovely to read! I'm so happy you're putting yourself first 😊 it's so important. I know, I'm one to talk... 😆 Thank you so much

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Penny
30 בינו׳

I found your Patreon, but not a way to send money. As soon as you are up to it, please add a way for us to send money and let us know. I can't wait for the store! Oh, and I have suffered with depression for 45 years. I am happy to say it is under control 98% of the time with medication. I know what it's like to be paralyzed by it and ready to toss in the towel.

Andrew Garfield may be able to help you figure things out. He is the voice behind the Ultimate Dog Tease video and Talking Animals.

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Oh I'm so happy you're doing better! and I'm glad you and a few others have reminded me that I even have a patreon. I got it over a year ago mainly to make sure no one else would take my name on the top platforms, but I didn't have any plans for it. There were some great suggestions, so I'll do what I can with it right away. it'll be simple at first but something to work towards. Thank you so much for the advice, and for just being here ❤️ I am very grateful for you. oh P.S.... I soft opened the store today 🤭

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gailecat@icloud.com
29 בינו׳

I will I could help you feel better. I haven’t much battery and will try to get back. Your posts bring joy to my life usually.

I think firstly you need to restore your relationship with your cats. The can be little shits at times but they love you and we don’t know what goes on in their little heads. You are trying so hard to pull it all together. Give yourself time to rebond with Susie and

Calvin, don’t be pressure d by us, your fans. We will always be here. Maybe commit to one post a month so we know you are ok.

I have been broke and a drinker but push forward gently. You are doing so…

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Oh love, thank you so much for the message. I understand all too well what youre going through and I hope you can find a way to charge your battery ❤️ I've had some great cuddles with calvin and susie and tensions have lifted slightly which is such a good feeling. I love you guys so much, I will be back. Obviously because of you guys, but truly I do love doing this. I just need to be more strict about taking breaks more often. I'll hopefully find a good balance in time. Sending you a big warm hug gaill🫂

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Sharon
29 בינו׳

Yeah. I’m not going anywhere. I just recently found you. And you make me giggle and then lol and then straight up guffaw! Take care of yourself You can’t care for others if you don’t do you first. Also I don’t think Susie hates you. I know it feels that way. But I highly doubt it’s true. I moved to a big scary house in the country with my two. They did not take it well. They get scared. Also. Congratulations on staying sober girl. You’ve got this. Now go cuddle some cats. We will be right here waiting for you.

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awww what a great comment! Thank you!! I feel a lot less brain fog after taking these last five or so days off of social media and my computer for the most part. Can't believe I didn't realize until so many people said so, but Calvin and Susie could very likely be mirroring my stress, so yep, gotta put the mask on first, so to say. Thank you for being such a light! I'm already excited to come back, mostly because I love you guys but also because I just love doing this so much. Just no more running myself in to the ground 😆 Thank you for being here! thank you for being you 🩷🫂 and welcome to the…

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