Heavy Eyelids Are the Enemy

Susie probably could have just said "five more minutes" and been done with me but she sure put up a good fight. 😆 I didn't need her awake, I wanted her to go back to sleep, but she's one busy Ninja spY skoO business owner... it must be hard with so many business related things in her schedule to have to juggle while she's just trying to get in some good shut-eye. Ninja-Spies require a lot of rest in order to have the energy they need to be awesome. Luckily she was out for a little bit longer, even though she was upset that she'd "slept in" 🤷🏻‍♀️ ninja spies, ammiright?

So... MY MOM IS VISITING AGAIN NEXT WEEK FOR A FEW DAYS😱😱😱😭 🙌🙌🙌 She came down here in April like she does sometimes, and then came to babysit my nephew in July so I got to see her twice in one year. That rarely happens. And now she's coming in October to stay for a few days because my sister needs her again!!! My sister doesn't live where I do, but she lives close enough that my mom tries to see us both if she's in the province. I honestly don't know if it's been one, or two decades since I've seen her thrice in a year 🥹🥹🥹 She says it's just prepping me for when I move to her town 🥰 and I love that. It's super true. And to be completely honest I've felt more needy and lonely than I ever used to. I don't like company, and I don't want a partner, so I'm not that kind of lonely, but I miss her. I thought maybe it's my mind, because things have gotten worse with my neurological disorder in adulthood. I'm constantly having to remind myself that my "High Functioning" label also means "Low Support Needs" not "No Support Needs". Even though I know it's not just "needing my mom". It could be something as simple as our relationship has gotten stronger and I wish I could see her more. But I think it may just come down to having future plans set, and how I know that it's hopefully going to be a reality soon. My heart very well might be yearning for what's to come and just wanting it to happen sooner ❤️

I've also been feeling really fragile and nervous about having to bring Calvin to the vet, too, so I think being able to see my mom before that will help me sooooooo much for when that day comes. Just so many good things.. my mind is racing with all of the thiiiings we're gonna dooo and everything I want to do before she gets here. ☺️ For all of the whining I do, I've had a pretty good year. Not many people can say that as it's been a hard year for society in general... so I really want to make sure I'm recognizing how much better my life is in comparison to 5 years ago. The difference is significant, so any time I'm feeling low, I need to just remember that comparison. I wouldn't have believed it if you'd told me. I read this somewhere a while ago and I love it; If you find yourself ever feeling like the mountain you're climbing is getting too difficult, and looking at how much farther you still have to go is too daunting and you feel like giving up, it's important to remind yourself to look behind you and see just how far you've already climbed. ❤️ Don't ever stop celebrating the little things. Big things wouldn't happen without the littles.

All the love,

Alex, Susie, and Calvin

So... MY MOM IS VISITING AGAIN NEXT WEEK FOR A FEW DAYS😱😱😱😭 🙌🙌🙌 She came down here in April like she usually does, and then came to babysit my nephew in July so I got to see her twice in one year. That rarely happens. And now she's coming in October to stay for a few days because my sister needs her again!!! My sister doesn't live where I do, but she lives close enough that my mom tries to see us both if she's in the province. I honestly don't know if it's been one, or two decades since I've seen her thrice in a year 🥹🥹🥹 She says it's just prepping me for when I move to her town 🥰 and I love that. It's super true. And to be completely honest I've felt more needy and lonely than I ever used to. I don't like company, so I'm not that kind of lonely, but I miss her. I've been missing her a lot and considering I'm used to that, it's been a difficult new thing to adjust to. But I think it may also have to do with me picturing my future plans, and how I know that it's hopefully going to be a reality soon. My heart just might be yearning for what's to come and just wanting it to happen sooner ❤️ I've also been feeling really fragile and nervous about having to bring Calvin to the vet, so I think being able to see my mom before that will help me sooooooo much for when that day comes. Just so many good things.. my mind is racing with all of the thiiiings we're gonna dooo and everything I want to do before she gets here. ☺️ For all of the whining I do, I've had a pretty good year. Not many people can say that as it's been a hard year for society in general... so I really want to make sure I'm recognizing how much better my life is in comparison to 5 years ago. The difference is significant, so any time I'm feeling low, I need to just remember that comparison. I wouldn't have believed it if you'd told me. I read this somewhere a while ago and I love it; If you find yourself ever feeling like the mountain you're climbing is getting too difficult, and looking at how much farther you still have to go is too daunting and you feel like giving up, it's important to remind yourself to look behind you and see just how far you've already climbed. ❤️ Don't ever stop celebrating the little things. Big things wouldn't happen without the littles.

All the love,

Alex, Susie, and Calvin