Silly Night-time Conversations

The three of us have fallen in to enough of a routine, that by around 9 or 9:30 at night Calvin and Susie start to close in. Calvin gets extra cute while singing and cooing very loudly at me, and Susie will usually be sitting on my art work or knocking my pens off of the table. This means it's bed time, and I'm hilarious if I think this is a choice. 😆 This video is the precursor before things got shut down for the night.

I feel like I'm having a very strange week. I don't know if it's showing as much in my content as I think it is, but I can't seem to put my finger on it, exactly. It's not a bad thing. I don't mean strange-bad. More like strange-sideways. And it's most likely all in my head and bringing it up here was just weird and moot (moo). 😆

I at least finally got out of the house yesterday to see an actual friend! Not just a doctor, or dentist, or cashier, but I actually chatted with someone I KNEW in PERSON! 😂😂😂 I have one really good friend who lives in town, and it was so good to see her yesterday that we just fell into a huge embrace the second we saw each other. First hug I've had since my mom left in July and man did that feel good 😊 It's no one's fault but my own, so don't feel too sorry for me in that regard 😅 I met this friend of mine when I had moved in to an apartment building a few months before Covid (this was right after I was homeless, too, I am so grateful that I was able to find a home and had a safe place to shelter for all of that chaos) and my friend lived across the hall with her cat, Halo. We hadn't met yet, but it didn't take long, and once we did we became close, fast. Due to the lock down, we were still able to shuffle over to each others apartments each morning in our socks and pjs with our coffees and hang out. She would bring Halo over and she had a good relationship with Calvin and Susie too. (Some of you might remember Halo from the two videos of the pigeons on the balcony, and the big floof thinking her mom is fattening them up for her). But ever since I made the mistake of moving in with my now ex, realizing I'd made a mistake and quickly moving out to a different apartment building, my friend and I don't see each other like we used to. She and I have the same anxieties about leaving our homes, so it was perfect when we shared a building, but not so much when you're a 20 minute walk away. But! We did make it work yesterday! We met at a sort of half-way point and wandered and chatted and it was really nice. I need to work on stepping outside of my safety zone a little more often. I felt so much better afterwards. Not in the extrovert "I need attention to refuel" kind of way, but in the way that loved ones are good for your heart. For things like that, it's worth it. It's harder for me, because a lot of the time my friend is out of commission and that's just something I have to live with. But those times where I have the opportunity to meet her and I flake out, I want to change that if I can. I have control over that.

I love you guys. Calvin and Susie say hi and they love you too ❤️