Starting a New Week

This little bundle of positivity is named Claaaara. Like if you were to be cool and british and say "Cl- ahh I see" not "Cl- air is nice for breathing". She really wanted me to pronounce her name right because she didn't want the other kiddos to say her name wrong as the british pronunciation is the devine 🙂‍↕️. This is another submission from @penny.is.grateful , and she says, "Clara was my foster kitty. She was adopted and returned when the family got a puppy and Clara didn't like it. She was adopted again a few months later. She lost her eye due to an infection as a stray kitten. She has a super spunky personality. Here she is literally eating my homework. She wasn't too happy about me paying attention to those papers instead of her. She was always into something. Her favorite place to sit at her first home was atop a stack of paper plates on the dinner table.?" 😂 Sounds comfy to me!

I went in this direction with the video today because yesterday pretty much felt like a total write off.. I fell in to a pretty bad mental state around midday, and went from happily working on our halloween costume, to just full on emotional breakdown where I could not stop crying for hours. It was exhausting and I don't really know where I sit right now. I know that I could easily fall back in to it, so I'm not trying to force anything and just taking it easy. Everything has just been incredibly overwhelming lately.. there are so many changes happening daily when it comes to what I do for a living, and I came in to the creator game a little too late. I'm overwhelmed with anxiety about the future of MPCL, while I'm also having a hard time feeling like I can catch up. I keep getting offers for things that would be great in the long run, but also require more work that I just don't have the time for. And on top of everything, a promo I've been trying to get finished for months seems to have... died on me? The project file for the video is damaged or something. I cannot work on the project without serious lagging issues, to the point of having done nothing on it for weeks except open the project, hope things were fixed, saw that they weren't, got upset, and closed the project. I know I have to start over and I hate that I have to tell someone to be even more patient with something I said would be done ages ago. I am terrible when it comes to project management... that is something I know I need help with as I see every single thing that needs doing as having a similar weight. When in reality there are priorities and a way of doing it efficiently. But all I can do is think of all the things at once and then I get overwhelmed, not knowing which to do first. Even if the priorities are clear as day, I'll still struggle.

I'm considering taking a week off of new videos in November some time just to help me breathe and catch up. I haven't taken a day off since my mom left and my to-do list has screeched to a grinding halt. I'll still be around, probably posting older videos or compilations for the week. And I'll be replying to comments when I can, I just really need a good chunk of time to get a few things off of the back burner. It's not time away from the channel, just time off of creating new shorts so that I have time to work on other videos I have planned and to smooth everything that needs smoothing out. And maybe clean my house and stick my head out the window? But until then I'm still getting our halloween costumes ready 😆 It may be a flop. But it makes me giggle and that's what matters. Like, it's so silly... please don't expect a master piece of online craftsmanship, I'm just a dork with a dorky idea and a platform to post it on 😘🤪

I'm also stoked that I get to repost my awesome halloween "costume" with susie from last year! hehe

I love you all. Let's start this week right 💪🏻 Clara's got the right idea.

Love,

Alex, Susie and Calvin

P.S. Calvin's vet video is up! I will be making a second Patreon post today for that as well ❤️❤️